Wednesday, April 11, 2012

I'm Alive

Just wanted to say before I go to bed with my crazy sleep schedule, that I am honestly so thankful for life. Every day to be alive and with the people and know that God has prepared an eternal, amazing place for all of us to be together with no more suffering or pain is amazing and hopeful to think about. And this is what I want to focus on in the good times and the hard times, the times of laughter with my hubby and loved ones, and the times of extreme pain and just trying to get through each hour. No matter how much pain we go through here on earth, it will not always be like this, simply because Jesus loves us so much that he took all of our mistakes upon his shoulders so we could have that perfect "happily ever after" that we all dream of in our hearts. How awesome it is to know that those words are not just a fairy tale!
The suffering and pain that my hubby and I go through, although grueling, tiring, and just out-right FRUSTRATING at times? I would not choose to go back before this all happened and have it disappear. Because our love is deeper, our faith is stronger, our hope is more genuine, and our longing to be with Jesus and home where we belong is more real. Believe me: I don't like pain. In fact, I despise it. I don't like it physically, mentally, emotionally, or spiritually. But there's something about pain that makes us realize what's really important in life. There's something about it that gets into our heart and says "hey, life's not meant to be like this. There must be something better than this!" If we choose to handle life's suffering in a positive way, we will grow deep, deep roots that cannot be uprooted when the storms of life come one after another. We will be able to appreciate the simple things of life like having a whole day without pain, enjoying a movie and laughing hysterically with our spouse or loved one, spending precious time with family, and just spending time worshiping God whether it's through music, being out in His creation, encouraging others, or filling ourselves up with His word and applying it to our daily lives.
I totally admit, I am not perfect at this lifestyle of constantly being thankful. I have times of worrying about our future, about our finances, if I will ever get better, if my husband will ever grow out of his crazy migraines that he's done soooooo many things to try to alleviate, and how we will survive. But I know that my God says "Cast all your cares on Him and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall." (Psalm 55:22).

One book I have been reading for encouragement lately is a book by Joni Eareckson Tada (let me know if you want the title!), who is an amazing Christian woman who was paralyzed by a diving accident at the age of 14. Since then she has led many, many people to the Lord through her testimony and started her own organization for helping the disabled, as well as speaking about her hope and the wisdom she's learned through her disability all around the world. It is so encouraging. The verse she quoted while I was reading a few nights ago was 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18, "Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus." And this is the verse I want to follow in my life right now while things are difficult. I don't want to stop praying and asking for God's healing, presence, comfort, love, and peace to be with my husband and me. I want to give him all of my honest thoughts but always knowing that I am rejoicing in His salvation and in the rewards of heaven to come. I don't ever want to get stuck in a rut of negativity. I want to give thanks for the things that I have, because I have so many blessings in my life, even on some of the worst days. God has always provided everything I need, and He will continue to provide, just like His word says! And He will do the same thing for you. Just keep trusting, keep persevering. Don't give up. Don't let your spiritual "fuel tank" go empty so that you get depressed and hopeless about life. And encourage others like me to stay on the path of thanksgiving and hopefulness!
Oh, and Happy Belated Easter! We weren't able to celebrate Easter this year with family because we were both really sick, which was hard, but we certainly celebrated in our hearts. So I'll leave you with a couple pictures of some eggs we dyed... last year! lol.  :-)

Friday, March 9, 2012


Thought I'd say hi since I haven't really been in the blog world lately. I don't have a lot of energy at all, but God is good and I am so thankful to have my loving hubby and family, a roof over our heads, and all of our needs met daily! That being said, we would love any prayer we can get for my husband's chronic, almost daily migraines, and my issues with Crohn's (and all that goes with it), my back problems, and my sleeping/fatigue problems. We're having an especially difficult time finding and treating Alex's migraines. They seem to stem from his neck pains and he always gets them after sleeping, in the early morning. We've literally tried everything we know, but we know that God has all the answers and we're asking Him to give us wisdom and guidance in our health issues, and also in our finances. There is so much to write about, but so little motivation, lol.

On another note, if you haven't seen this already (which I'm sure most of you have), please watch this video. I care deeply about the people affected by this and pray that God's justice will be poured out!

Here's a small survey that looked like fun to fill out. I don't really keep in contact with blog friends anymore but I hope anyone who reads this will say hi; I would love to catch up with you and your blogs when I have some more energy!

1. If you could take your family and friends with you and move anywhere in the United States, where would you move?
I haven’t been many places, but I loved San Diego so much when we went for our honeymoon (over  5 years ago now!) I love the weather and the beach. So I’d have to choose San Diego or possibly somewhere in Oahu, Hawaii.

2. If you could have any talent, what would it be?
Hmmm… a talent that I don’t have that I want… I’d like to wake up and automatically be able to play whatever instrument I want! And play the piano better too!

3. What was your AIM screen name?
SpecialGirl101… hahaha... well, that was my longest-running one.  It was from my favorite song at the time, “Girl” by O-Town; my taste in music has definitely changed!

4. Other than your wedding or the birth of a child, what event in your life would you like to relive if you were given the chance?
That’s too easy, our honeymoon! It was just so much fun and we were healthy and happy and got to do so many awesome things and just be together! J

5. What has been the biggest surprise in your life? (This doesn't have to be deep. Just a fun surprise!)
What comes to mind is the fact that I met my husband in my hometown; I always thought I’d have to go away to college to find “the one”, especially since there are sure SLIM PICKINS where I live! Little did I know he was a friend of a friend and we had probably been in the same place at the same time at least once before we actually met…. Mysterious!

6. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
Well, “morning” for me is afternoon, because I have a bunch of fatigue/sleeping issues right now. When I do have energy to get ready, I have to go very slow because of no energy and it usually takes me around an hour-and-a-half.

7. What is the last book you read?
“A Place of Healing: Wrestling with the Mysteries of Suffering, Pain, and God's Sovereignty” by Joni Eareckson Tada

8. What is your favorite room in your house and why?
I would say our living room, because it has our comfy couches and our awesome flat-screen tv and my hubby and I like to watch our favorite tv shows together since we don’t have much energy most of the time.

9. If you could do it again, what is something you would change about your wedding?
Ummm I would’ve had our pastor at the time make our ceremony a little bit more personal like telling the story of how we met and our relationship, etc. and just  little things like making sure I got more pictures with my bridesmaids since a couple of them showed up with their dresses completely wrinkled and it was a disaster! Other than that it was the best day of my life and I wouldn’t change the way I felt on that day for anything in the world!

10. What is your favorite non-reality show?
Modern Family, Up All Night, White Collar, The Office, and Parks & Rec! They all tie! Oh, Grimm and Person of Interest too!

11. What is your favorite vacation spot (a place you've already been before) and why?
I love all of our family trips to Laguna Beach and SoCal at my grandparents’ house, but my favorite has to be our honeymoon in San Diego, I love that city! I also love our summer weekends at Lake Siskiyou, right at the base of Mt. Shasta, so beautiful and all of the camping fun but with a beautiful cabin to stay in at night! J